You surely experienced those times when everything goes wrong, I'm hosting such times now.
Apparently, things are good; stable status.
Family? relation is fine, visiting grannies, aunt, and it's going.
Friends? well I am about to forget such a word. I think "colleagues" has just replaced it. No problems.
People in Circles? know nothing about them, but it's peace.
College? 3rd week just passed, attended most of lect, sec & labs. No serious troubles.
Life? About to be part of 3 different life activities that are seriously important, beside the 3 I'm already having.
Relationships? No comment.
Remember, that was "apparently" !
But It's not about Family, Friends, People around, College, Activities nor event about relationship status. It's not about how things look!
It's about "Me". It's about how i see them and how do i feel about them.
"Me" is not feeling any good; "Me" is feeling so down, so week, so broken spiritually and disabled physically.
"Me" is having shortage towards her God which makes everything meaningless.
And as a Result "Me" is way down, having too trifling thoughts which disable her from figuring out what comes first then what. What's the highest priority now to be done? What to start with? What to keep? And what to give up on?
I ask for prayers because people got nothing to do with "Me" more than this.
As long as she feels guilty and having shortage, as long as she feels her soul got disconnected, as long as she feels that she lost her God's contentment... As long as no one would be able to help more than to pray for her.
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Apparently, things are good; stable status.
Family? relation is fine, visiting grannies, aunt, and it's going.
Friends? well I am about to forget such a word. I think "colleagues" has just replaced it. No problems.
People in Circles? know nothing about them, but it's peace.
College? 3rd week just passed, attended most of lect, sec & labs. No serious troubles.
Life? About to be part of 3 different life activities that are seriously important, beside the 3 I'm already having.
Relationships? No comment.
Remember, that was "apparently" !
But It's not about Family, Friends, People around, College, Activities nor event about relationship status. It's not about how things look!
It's about "Me". It's about how i see them and how do i feel about them.
"Me" is not feeling any good; "Me" is feeling so down, so week, so broken spiritually and disabled physically.
"Me" is having shortage towards her God which makes everything meaningless.
And as a Result "Me" is way down, having too trifling thoughts which disable her from figuring out what comes first then what. What's the highest priority now to be done? What to start with? What to keep? And what to give up on?
I ask for prayers because people got nothing to do with "Me" more than this.
As long as she feels guilty and having shortage, as long as she feels her soul got disconnected, as long as she feels that she lost her God's contentment... As long as no one would be able to help more than to pray for her.
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It's way hard to be pushed to believe that "YOU Can't" while you know deep that "If it is not you who can so who is!"
This is where I am at exactly.
Either to believe what I'm being pushed to believe, or to be that stubborn who refuses failure and refuses to let herself down by disbelieving in her own capabilities and skills!
Prayers Needed.
but..
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