I don't know why this annoyed me, or why even I've had it on my mind. It's that thing I always used to hate having it around, but for some conditions I can't feel guilty, as it's not in fact, it's a way of pushing higher, better and it's not a guilt! So why it turned my mood up to down in just moments?
May be because it let me see that I'm so tiny or nearly nothing! That I'm wasting a lot of time, health and many graces on nothing! That It needs me to cut miles and miles to reach the first stage above the ground. The ground of Knowledge. The Ground of Science, Achievements, Greatness. Those steps who the greatest humans just reach the first three or four steps and that's what humanity consider greatness, while I'm way down beneath the First Step.
Although I believe that "Me" is the only One I should "Be". And This "Me" actually isn't a meaningless or a trivial thing, nor a weak body with useless soul. No! It's totally absolutely and completely NOT, however I can feel sorry that lead to depression when "my self" automatically make out a comparison between the things called achievements of mine and some others, or when it decided to show me only the good sides in people as if they're perfect and every thing done seems great! I do hate it.
Yes I know that " my self" feels some jealousy that it wants to be better and better. In fact it loves those people and appreciate their works a lot, but it once got down after that. I keep reminding it of the good things, the wonderful things it has and others don't, and that actually it is talented and makes a quite good use out of them, it just needs to be better and work harder, but not every time it listens to me...
When it gets down. so that's it. When it gets down it gets "fear" with it, and it decided to let me host it! Fear of many things, fear of short life with much much little things that can't be called yet "achievements" according to my own dictionary. Fear of sanction. Fear of...
May be because it let me see that I'm so tiny or nearly nothing! That I'm wasting a lot of time, health and many graces on nothing! That It needs me to cut miles and miles to reach the first stage above the ground. The ground of Knowledge. The Ground of Science, Achievements, Greatness. Those steps who the greatest humans just reach the first three or four steps and that's what humanity consider greatness, while I'm way down beneath the First Step.
Although I believe that "Me" is the only One I should "Be". And This "Me" actually isn't a meaningless or a trivial thing, nor a weak body with useless soul. No! It's totally absolutely and completely NOT, however I can feel sorry that lead to depression when "my self" automatically make out a comparison between the things called achievements of mine and some others, or when it decided to show me only the good sides in people as if they're perfect and every thing done seems great! I do hate it.
Yes I know that " my self" feels some jealousy that it wants to be better and better. In fact it loves those people and appreciate their works a lot, but it once got down after that. I keep reminding it of the good things, the wonderful things it has and others don't, and that actually it is talented and makes a quite good use out of them, it just needs to be better and work harder, but not every time it listens to me...
When it gets down. so that's it. When it gets down it gets "fear" with it, and it decided to let me host it! Fear of many things, fear of short life with much much little things that can't be called yet "achievements" according to my own dictionary. Fear of sanction. Fear of...
عن عبد الله بن مسعود رضي الله عنه عن النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم قال:
(لا تزول قدما ابن آدم يوم القيامة من عند ربه حتى يسأل عن خمس : عن عمره فيما أفناه ؟ وعن شبابه فيما أبلاه ؟ وماله من أين اكتسبه ؟ وفيما أنفقه ؟ وماذا عمل فيما علم) .(صحيح) أخرجه الترمذي
وفي لفظ من حديث ابن عباس وأبي برزة الأسلمي رضي الله عنهما قالا : قال رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم :
(لا تزول قدما عبد يوم القيامة حتى يسأل عن أربع عن عمره فيما أفناه وعن جسده فيما أبلاه وعن ماله فيما أنفقه ومن أين كسبه)
(لا تزول قدما ابن آدم يوم القيامة من عند ربه حتى يسأل عن خمس : عن عمره فيما أفناه ؟ وعن شبابه فيما أبلاه ؟ وماله من أين اكتسبه ؟ وفيما أنفقه ؟ وماذا عمل فيما علم) .(صحيح) أخرجه الترمذي
وفي لفظ من حديث ابن عباس وأبي برزة الأسلمي رضي الله عنهما قالا : قال رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم :
(لا تزول قدما عبد يوم القيامة حتى يسأل عن أربع عن عمره فيما أفناه وعن جسده فيما أبلاه وعن ماله فيما أنفقه ومن أين كسبه)
{فَوَرَبِّكَ لَنَسْأَلَنَّهُمْ أَجْمَعِينَ * عَمَّا كَانُوا يَعْمَلُونَ}
[الحجر:92-93].
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