*102* هل هو جُرم؟

إني لأتساءل .. هل هو جرم أن نحب الفعال و الخصال؟ أن نحب المواقف؟ نحب الروح الفاعلة؟ نحب أثر السعادة الذي يعقب الفعل أو القول؟ .. هل هو جرم أن نحب للحب؟ أن نحب كل جميل :) 

هكذا هو دوما معي, أحب الجميل لجماله, و هكذا هو دوما أيضا, أحب كل جميل أستشعره في كل نفس .. دوما هناك جمال ولكن لمن يبحث عنه في النفوس

و أحيانا .. أحيانا نادرة و لكنها تحدث .. أن تتكاثف مظاهر الجمال في روح ما يقدر المولى ان تقابل روحنا في هذا السفر القصير .. فتضفي بهجة على روحنا ليس لها مثيل :)

و العجيب ان الجمال لا يكمن فيما يُقال بل هو غالبا فيما لا يُقال حفاظا على الود في الوصل, غالبا ما يكمُن في الأفعال البسيطة الخفيّة دون عن غيرها .. 

أحيانا يكون الجمال في اتيان العهود التي لا حرج من عدم اتيانها و لكنها تُؤتى فتضفي جمال على الروح و تقوي الوصل وترفع الشأن

أحيانا يكون الجمال في وقع النظرات .. و غالبا ما يكون فيما حُجِب منها

أحيانا يكون في بسمات خفية تحمل الكثير في طياتها

أحيانا يكون الجمال أعمق من أن يُرى بالعين المجردة, و لكنه يُرى بوضوح بعين الجمال في القلوب

أحيانا يكون الجمال .. فقط جمال .. جمال يُدرك في أثره لا في سببه .. جمال يصعُب على النفس تفسير حبه و لكنها فقط تحبه.. 

و ما بال الروح ان التقت بروح تُقدِّر الجمال! كارثة جمالية D= ! ليست كارثة في ذاتها و لكن ان تعلقت الارواح بموجب هذا الجمال.. إن تعلقت بوصل يَهدم هذا الجمال.. فإنها حقا كارثة.. 

وهنا أقف, هنا بالتحديد, هنا حيث يهب الجميل المبدع بعض من جماله سبحانه لروحي المشتاقة التائهة في ارض تهدم كل جميل و تحاربه حربا عبثية لا تفسير لها, هنا يهب الجميل روحي لقاء أرواح ما زالت تحمل في طياتها جمال حر. جمال الفطرة, جمال العقيدة, جمال الأصالة,.. و جمال آخر لم أعرِّفه بعد .. و لكني أدركه .. و أدرك كم هو نقي حر .. حقيقي .. نعم فالزيف في الجمال أصبح يكسو معظم الأشياء . جمال مفتعل .. و لكن هذا .. مازلت أعتقد أنه حقيقي .. و هنا تكمن كل الأسئلة .. هنا بالتحديد..

هل هو جرم أن نحب الجميل لجماله؟ .. هل هو جرم أن نحب الحب للحب؟ =)

*101* The heartbeats fall

It's been sometime till things went critical on the personal side, i thought it was just a week ago or about, but reviewing things made me realize it's a little bit far than that, but i thought i kept things stable, relatively, till a week ago my beautiful little messy thyroid started to host the weather unpredictable changes, and since then everything started to go critical taking my heartbeats on that unlikely trip which i lately called it "The Heartbeats fall"

Speaking about the pills, i'm unexpectedly taking it on time, speaking bout the next health-check visit it's a month far, and finally speaking about the some pretty other pressures whether personal or academic, they seem to stay for a not any short time (midterms after 2 weeks, mum is leaving after 3 weeks for another 2 weeks and .. I don't expect some other stuff get stable before this period too) so.. heartbeats and unstable pressure is a must-be well-hosted guest..hmm..

Writing about it let me figure it out in a more serious way than before, leading me nowhere but to the shocking fact which is..

I have to stick to Mum's Parsley's recommended juice! No Way!

Lesson of the Day: "This is one colour of punishments for those who lose control on their own lives. Control It, or You won't know what might be Next on the parent's list" !

Finale.

*100* Heavy as Mountains .. Fragile as Glass

The 100th post comes with one special event.. having the most heavy gift, most fragile, most valuable  and -as my friend said- a dangerous one... "Trust"!

Truly, Trust .. is The most marvelous burden ..

Winning one's trust is a matter, and having a confession that you won it is a totally different matter
and when Trust is one's most valuable thing, and when you are aware of that, so when you are given it, it's like you've been given one's best gift =) It's the happy burden indeed =')

Can't explain much.. but it's breathless -literally- over here.. raised heartbeats.. adrenaline rush.. putting myself in your shoe makes my worry become more than ever.. it's.. hard, on you, and that makes it harder on me, but I Promise You since this very moment I'll Never let you down =) 

Sincerely Grateful 

*99* Kind of Holiday Diary

hmm.. from where to start..

These are the holiday(s) of the first 10 of ZulHijjah before Eidul Adha, already 7 days have passed, today is the 8th (Saturday the 12th of October, 2013)

I'm not going to write anything related to these blessed days, rather than documenting some random thoughts I want to save, maybe I'll need it later maybe not.

This semester my weekend is on Thursday and Friday, and since Saturday is for GP and we didn't make any progress yet, so we can say I'm off college since last Wednesday 12:30 pm (and that's when I last saw you..)

What made me want to go for documentation is that This kind-of-long holiday shall witness the experience of getting away from some addictions (as i consider them), like social networks and their magnetic fields! Also this would be a test whether i can have a sudden cut in certain relationships or not (well, i don't think it's a matter of can or cannot rather than a matter of "what's the effect of going away for sometime on me?")

And since I can't take anything but slow, and since I want really to do this right, keep it as a reminder for my life -if I was meant to have any longer time on this earth- and since I have no choice but to win the challenge I put, I'll use this chance the best I can. (p.s. I never lost a challenge, but to challenge a challenger.. that's exciting ;) )
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Day 1: Saturday the 12th of October, 2013
Started around 1 a.m.

State: Normal, except that I know It's not
Steps Taken: Checking social networks for minutes, checking important news, downloading college files, and no interaction. Started to check simulation Lectures. (It's boring, you know, I missed the power hours and those exams days =))
Feeling: Not sure, but I'm happy for having a chance to take this break i badly needed, I feel bored though.
Thought: I want to document this day by day, if it's the same so that would be great, means it's safe, other wise I'm not sure I'm going to like it or even can deal with it.
Concern: Will we really make it?
Wish: I truly wish we can get back on track, to the path we chose, to the destiny we set, however hard was that, we did it once, and we know we can make it, again.
Message: I don't want to miss you, but I think I will, I hope not, I'm not there yet.. whatever
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Day 2: Sunday the 13th of October, 2013
Just started

State: Trying to have a new day
Steps Taken: Nothing till the moment I'm writing in. All there is that I didn't want to go trough the process of traveling abroad, but whether i liked or not i did, and this wasted like the half of the day. Managing to get my new laptop so as to make any progress with tasks and studying. I checked also into facebook today and made a post.
Feeling: Not really good, I hated my attitude today, and hated everything just took place, however i know it's all written for reasons. (My only good moment when i checked the mails today =))
Thought: (1) I missed the funeral, I hated to waste my day on an unlikely process, everything almost got my nerve that I stopped answering anyone except for needed couple of words or actions taken, Why can't I just skip this town?
(2) About facebook, once i checked into it today, my head screamed "Get me out of here NOW!" I can't take this killing contradiction of people's statuses and posts anymore!
(3) checking the funeral photos today.. ماذا كان بينك و بين الله يا بلال =']
Concern: Regardless all the life stuff and logical reasons, but truly if i was meant to make it today to the funeral, I'd have made it, I just wasn't meant to be there, yet.. I don't deserve to be there..
Wish: As Yesterday >> I truly wish we can get back on track, to the path we chose, to the destiny we set, however hard was that, we did it once, and we know we can make it, again.
Message: I dreamed of you, but can't really remember what exactly, and you were on my mind like the whole day! Stay Strong (as you always are). I need your prayers
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Day 3: Monday the 14th of October, 2013 (وقفة عرفة)
Started 12:00 am : )

State: a bit excited
Steps Taken: started to disconnect from social networks better than before (though i had to congratulate people for eid) and started really to connect to reality. Since 3 years i stopped phone calling friends to congratulate them for eid and ramadan, not for anything but for getting too busy to call everyone, today I made sure I'm back to my best friends and the old habits :) I spent pretty time with the family, grandparents and auntie, also i achieved a small goal that aligns with the change plan :) (Though being a happy thing, talking to you was like breaking a rule i didnt want to break, i didnt want you to break it too)
Feeling: hmm.. the guilty, happy, worried, excited, weird mode, that's how the day started, but i loved today with all things achieved, however little or small they are. I'm happy :)
Thought: Shall i make some calls to congratulate some certain people about eid? .. I checked my phone book and I.. tried to pass some names so quickly, however they'll always be taking some of our lives away.. with them.
Concern: I am not really satisfied about the studying part. (I'm concerned too about our last talk.. I'm afraid, and i have nothing but to pray)
Wish: Tomorrow be truly "Eid" a day that returns happiness and joy to everyone, brings victory to This Ummah, brings blesses, mercy and forgiveness to our souls. I wish for many many things that i couldn't mention in it all in Today's prayers, but I tried to anyway :)
Message: No matter how long we talk, there are always a lot i wish i can tell but just can't, after the last talk i started to consider some old things that i intentionally ignored once, however I still don't want to reach what it lead me to.. if only you talk, directly, things would be much easier, but that's in my dreams i know! #Whatever Enjoy Eid :)
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Day 4: Tuesday the 15th of October, 2013 (أول أيام عيد الأضحى المبارك)
Started @ Fajr Time

State: At My best.. It's My Special Lovely Day :)
Steps Taken: Meeting my school friends after waking them up, is just EID :D that's how it's been always going :)) Calling the rest of my best friends and neighbours, makes it EID as the good old days :)) (Seeing you, hmm.. goes negatively with  the whole plan, though it made me feel home)
Feeling: I love the quick development of reconnecting back to my old world and the old me :)
Thought: somehow, eyes don't meet, somehow they lose connection. hmm.. they never had it anyway
Concern: I addicted being around? It just feels so home, but it shouldn't keep going that way..
Wish: to get things stable soon as i need them to be 
Message: help me please to get out of this, it's too vague to hold on
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Day 5: Wednesday the 16th of October, 2013
Started before Fajr

State: I want to end this day before it's even getting started
Steps Taken: I'm away right? I'm progressing, somehow, lessening connections, and now losing them coldly, perfect, somehow!
Feeling: It's way down depressing. I hate being back to distractions and i hate the contradictions between what i want and what i need.
Thought: (1) who took me away out of my comfort zone!
(2) addiction is addiction, and to get free it costs, i think the unstable emotions cost is one of the worst, yet a must-happen, getting away from people, that's a double-weapon thing too.
(3) I need to fill the study gap.
(4) for depression times, chocolate is really good but chocolate cakes are just great!
Concern: how long would it take to get back to the safe area?
Wish: having control back before i get totally insane
Message: ...

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Day 6: Thursday, the 17th of October, 2013

Started Late after around 14 hours sleeping

State: All what i can say, that it was hard enough

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Day 7: Friday, the 18th of October, 2013

Started 12:00 am

State: hard then with keeping the push it turns almost normal

Steps Taken: I controlled writing down when i badly needed to, I kept my fingers away from the keyboard, mobile, and even papers! and i didn't talk about it of course, and here when the tipping point took place!

Feeling: much better

Thought: not writing yesterday was really good, controlling some stuff not to be out at once makes a total tipping point for modes and psychological inner state, it's like you push when you think it's your best, then yourself surprises you that it's not your dead end yet and turns to be just perfect after crossing this comfort zone, i forgot what this state is called but it has kind of a name

Concern: what's next?

Wish: you are okay

Message: ... 

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Day 8: Saturday, the 19th of October, 2013

It was almost a two-running day

State: better, and by night it was just awesome

Steps Taken: I can admit some rules are broken, yet it was helping facing the whole thing, indirectly directly!

Feeling: much better.. hmm.. i felt asleep out of an inner peace of happiness which rarely happens

Thought: It's complicated that it took me two days late to write it down, seriously thinking to get in the GP that converts mind signals into texts so as i can read your mind :) it's been always a dream to read minds and being invisible, so let's achieve one at least! :D
On the other side, I still don't want to completely be aware of what i think is true, it doesn't make sense, does it? we are mental-wise thinkers more than heart-wise and so we know deeply if we took things that way it won't work, we know us and know our fears, we know it's a disaster types of character match, however perfect friendship it makes, and i know you know, so what's the so complicated? Moreover, we already had stuff, i mean, looking on what put us here now was a totally different thing, i was a matcher =D not anything else, and I won't bear losing a friend for friend... a lot of thoughts filling the pot on both sides, and i'm still ignoring totally yours, if u weren't that over-thinker smart one i'd get things as it seems to be, but looking deep in you it let me think with lots of views about every word that i reach no end at last, maybe it's the thing brought me to think that way is "ignoring", maybe you meant a totally different thing and it's all upside down there, i can't be sure of anything that's what freaks me out honestly! that I don't know

Concern: why am I here, things where easy when that door was shut, i bet you had a better life before getting into this. I'd be always sorry till things get right 

Wish: Ya Allah, you're the All-Knowing One, help us fix it out.

Message: The deal is on in all circumstances :)

*98* #SelfTalks : What then!

So What is that? You know what am talking exactly about! So what it is that?
Is it just like many other things? is it just another challenge which was not exactly a challenge but with time became.. a challenge.. well no, it became i don't even know what's the proper word to describe how I feel towards the whole thing! All i know right now is, regardless the whole thing is wrong and you, myself, is being drugged while you deal with the whole matter, but dear, it's not only that view that matters, cause I tried hard to get things right and failed once and twice and trice .. so. maybe i shall give it a shot and think of it the other way..
and the Question is WHY! and HOW!

why you? why now? why i feel that way? why i get replying signs on my calls while i totally have no idea behind the reasons of those calls! It's just.. happened!
I missed how to feel some feelings, some pretty time ago, i skipped them and ran away not to get stuck at its vortex, and now... they're back with new look! they are back unexpectedly! they are back against all my inner mental logic and all basis of my own! .. happened at the wrong time, at the very wrong time! and i truly dont want things to go on, they're already out lines ..

fine, why i dont feel the "outline" thing when it's on air? lol this is crazy.. i got always those two contradicted voices in my head, but sometimes it's like I hit sometimes one of them so i can have some inner peace for sometimes, but what then? it's healed and returns all the BUZZ again, and i know it's the straight-forward voice of mine so i dont return hitting it.. i only let myself being driven mad!
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We .. you .. i .. i know it's not only my head which is being driven crazy, the over-thinking is mutual dear! but what then? I need to figure out the case, being happy at the wrong time with the wrong people is just deeply complicated, however we're acting cool as.. snow! with no known direction or magnitude, with no boarders, no drawing lines, with no start or known end.. but it must get to an end one day.. i mean, isn't it life anyway? whether we like it or not, it has its own rules, so how we shall play the game? how shall we break the rules this time and keep it smart?

No regrets, but am afraid, and this time is .. serious

*97* #SelfTalks : Self Admonition

This head is getting rushed over the last few days, but honestly it's been some long time since it started the deviation and getting on the wrong track, again! First it broke the little tiny rules, then events took place and.. all went wrong. I don't know is it a bless or a bliss to keep aware of the deviation minute by minute, i hated it, tried a lot to avoid it and put things into its places quickly, but it worked totally the opposite. If i said i don't know how I'd be lying to myself, i just don't know "why" i started to break the rules and promises i one day put, never did before so why now! But all in all this was my whole mistake, aware of it and just don't push it away strongly should i do. Now what?! Now i got back to those no life moments, mean life conflicts, confusions, those BUZZ people get themselves into and just lose themselves right there and think they are alive that way! but hey self! you know it's the worst life one can have, actually it is no life! it's the fame of fake.It's the hell in disguise. It's "Mean Life" not even the Life we are supposed to be living. It's where sins are cool and consciences are drugged down. It's where Satan takes you step by step far away that "YOU" really are and should be, little one by little one to "nowhere" and you think it's your own choices or steps! Idiot! Who said one should not be harsh on himself? Sorry, when self got weak, drugged, lose control on principals and got out of line, it should be punished the worst way, it should be pressed to leave what she thinks is fine "now" and get back to its maturity and true life it was created for.

Self you are really a disaster!
You, the strong powerful you, can damage a whole society just by repeating sins over and over! can you image self? yes you are that effective! you're that strong! the worst of all that you are so much influential -even if you are not aware of it all the time- and yes it's the hell itself when you are off track! Imagine how much wrong you do, and if just one followed one of that wrong as if's right, imagine if all the wrong you foolishly make was followed by! HELL You! HELL You!

Self, you know you're deeply good, you are beautifully created, you are blessed with many things millions wish they have, so Please take care of these blesses, Thank for it the way you are supposed to thank for, work hard for your real home Paradise, don't let Satan gets over you again, don't get your sins accompanied with all live negatives and depressions get to your heart again, Please, I know your will is so much stronger than even your parents think, your head is much stubborn than even people can imagine, you were given those two for a great mission on this earth, to wisely use them, and rightly use them.

Stick to The right people, or don't stick at all, just don't get misguided and then drag people with you in that, all souls got its weakness, so either get close and strengthen them or never get any closer.

Your life, you know how you can measure it, Prayers focusing, Prayers seeking, free satisfied heart cheering up, friends and communities you get involved in, and most important sign.. parents satisfaction, happiness and pride. You know how you measure it, you know well and you're blessed to be aware of it, so let be truly a bless and set your mind up right, or it'll be a bliss and stands to witness against you on the day of judgment.

Self, Stay Safe.

*96* #جرّب_كدة : )

كل يوم مع آذان #الفجر فكّر في دعوة جديدة تدعي بيها لنفسك و لأهلك و لقرايبك و لصحابك و لجيرانك و لزمايلك : ) #جرّب_كدة : ) 

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 لو أخدت كل موقف اتعمل فيك و ضايقك وفكرت في أسباب حدوثه بـ #حُسن_ظن و إن كان الهدف منه خير .. هتقلل حدة كتير في تعاملاتك ويغلب على طباعك الهدوء و على تعاملاتك الود و على وجهك البسمة : ) #جرّب_كدة
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و بدل ما تقفل من بني آدم .. ادعي له : ) #جرّب_كدة

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 ولما يبقى عليك فلوس لحد و مفيش أي امكانية انك ترجعهاله, خرجها باسمه في صدقة, ويا سلام لو صدقة جارية : ) #جرّب_كدة

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عارف انت لو بطلت نبرة السخرية (خاصة لو من أشخاص) شوية ايه اللي هيحصل؟ .. هترتاح كتير و هتبقى افضل نفسيا و سلوكيا : ) #آه_والله #جرّب_كدة .. أصلا #السخرية_حرام : ) سواء من الأشخاص أو الأقدار : )

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لما تسمع آية قرآنية فيها مثل صالح أو دعاء وإنت معدي بالصدفة وتفكرك بحد معين
ادعِ للشخص ده بالخير الـ في الآية وادعِ لنفسك معاه : ) #جرّب_كدة

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وفي الثلث الأخير من الليل في ركعتين بينك و بين ربنا والدعاء مستجاب, ادعِ لناس كتير وحشتك, و ناس كتير تتمنى لهم الهداية, و ناس تدعيلهم من كتر ما اتعلمت منهم كتير ولسة بتتعلم, و ناس عارف ان ربنا مبتليهم ورغم كدة صابرين فتدعيلهم ربنا يجزيهم خير في الدنيا و الآخرة و يفرح قلوبهم : ) و ناس تانية كتير هتيجي على بالك و انت بتدعي .. ماتكسلش تذكرهم في دعائك : )

#جرّب_كدة .. وادعيلي معاك : )
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وفي عز همّك جرّب تكون سبب في رسم #بسمة_أمل .. جرّب تكون "إنت" #الأمل : ) #فلنغرسها #جرّب_كدة 
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أنا عارفة إن القاعدة مملة أوي هنا و بتكسّل الواحد و ساعات تلهيه أو تجيبله اكتئاب! : )

بس لو اتحديت نفسك و قلتلها إنها لازم تقوم دلوقتي لمدة 10 دقايق بس تتوضى و تصلي ركعتين قيام أخيَر لها من كل تلاهي الدنيا .. هتلاقي راحة رهيبة هلّت عليك و استجابة لدعواتك (الثلث الأخير من الليل) و قرب في السجود وسط هذا الظلام و الناس نيام, ده غير بركة ليومك بكرة و ثواب في الآخرة قبل الدنيا : )

فكّر نفسك دايما قبل أي حد .. احنا اتخلقنا عشان نعبده : ) و لما تفتكر إن ده سبب وجودك أصلا على هذ الكوكب, فكّر غيرك و قوم اتوضى وصلّي : )

#جرّب_كدة و قولي حسيت بايه :))

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#جرّب_كدة تبقى مش طايق حد نهائي, وتيجي في #ركعتين_قيام تدعيله : )

ما كلنا بنغلط, المهم ال يسامح وال ربنا ينعم عليه ويهديه : )

وأهي #دنيا

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وفي عز همّك التقيل .. و حُزنك الدفين .. و هَم وحُزن اللي حوليك قبليك .. افتكره و فكّر غيرك بيه .. ده ربك عالم أبدا مش ناسيك .. ربك كريم هو الوكيل .. هو اللي خلقك و استحالة يضيعك .. هو هاديك و مُنجّيك :)

#جرّب_كدة و كن #بسمة_يقين .. كن #تجديد_العهد .. كن #التذكِرة_الحيّة .. كن #الأمل  :)

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عارف لما تدعي لحد من قلبك أوي, تدعيله بالغيب, يعني دعاءك يبقى بينك و بين ربنا بس :)) الحد ده مش هيعرف "فعليا" في "الدنيا" إنك دعيت, بس هيوصله, هيحس بيه :)) ده بجد مش مجرد كلام

أصل الدعاء ده بيبقى صادق أوي, محدش شايفك, و بتقول فيه كل اللي نفسك فيه و كل اللي حتى ماتقدرش تجهر بيه, بتقوله للي خالق قلبك و عالِم بيه :)) بتقوله مش عشان ربك مش عارف اللي فيك, بس عشان لذة المناجاة, عشان لذة بعث رسالة لشخص ما في مكان ما بتستودعها في أمانة الله لحد ما يحين المعاد و تلتقوا عند عرشه :))

وعشان كدة لا عجب من إن الدعاء لأخيك بظهر الغيب مستجاب :)) لإنه #الود الصادق الراقي المحقق لسمو العلاقة الانسانية بين العباد :))

#جرّب_كدة .. جرّب الليلة في ركعتين .. جرّب في سجدة .. ابعد عن الناس و خد ركن و جرّب تعرف احساس عميق مهما اتقال عنه صعب يتوصف .. جرّب و مش هتندم :))

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#جرّب_كدة  تدعي لحد بالغيب بصدق وحب, و هتلاقي الحد ده بيحبك بدون أسباب! 
وجرّب بردو كدة تغتاب أو تنم على حد, و هتلاقي الحد ده بقى مش طايقك بردو بدون أسباب =) 
وصل النفوس و انقطاعها ليس بالظواهر بل بما يكمن في السجايا =) 

هي #دنيا من الدنو .. فاهجر كل من\ما تشبّه بها وارتقِ =)
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و ايه أجمل من انك تبقى مخنوق فتروح للحاجة تترمي في حضنها بدون مقدمات و تقولها .. سامحيني و ادعي لي ؟

الاجمل انها رغم عدم منطقية اللي انت عملته فجأة تبقى حاسة بيك .. تدعيلك و تقولك "أنا مسامحاك" 

#جرّب_كدة #أهلك_كنز_لو_بس_تقدره #الحمد_لله
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#فذَكِّر .. ركعتين بنية قيام الليل .. في كل ركعة اقرأ ولو صفحة واحدة من القرآن .. هم مفتاح تغيير من حياة لحياة والله #جرّب_كدة و #داوِم
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‪#‎Happiness_IS‬ ركعتين ‫#‏قيام_الليل‬ اللي بتمسك فيهم المصحف و تفتح صفحة بشكل عشوائي و تشوف رسالة ربنا ليك (اصل مفيش حاجة عشوائية .. كل شيء بقدر و مكتوب بس انت ركّز) :))

الركعتين اللي بتطلع فيهم كل حاجة شغلاك و تعباك و تحمد ربنا فيهم على كل خير سواء كان عطاء أو ابتلاء .. و تدعي فيهم بكل اللي تتمناه و تدعي لاحبابك معاك :)) 

و كل ماتدعي لحد تلاقي الاسم يفكرك بمجموعة ناس و يتحول الدعاء لـ ليستة أسماء لا نهائية من كتر ما انت مش هاين عليك ماتذكرش حد جه على بالك :)) .. 

‫#‏جرّب_كدة‬ و هتعرف انها ‫#‏سعادة‬ من نوع خاص جدا :))

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#جرّب_كدة تبقى مُجهَد ومتكسّر و مش قادر تقوم من مكانك, بس تجيلك تذكرة من حد عزيز عليك يشجعّك ويقولك "يلا #ركعتين_قيام_الليل" 

فتفكّر إنك "عادي" تكسّل و تبقى زي أي حد "عادي" في هذا الزمن "العادي" إن شيطانه يكون اقوى منّه  ... 
أو إنّك هتقوم "بالعند في شيطانك و نفسك الضعيفة" و تفتكّر قد ايه ركعتين في الدنيا و انت هلكان ممكن يبقوا سبب نجاتك من هلاك يوم عظيم! .. مش بس كدة, ربنا سبحانه وتعالى قال في حديث قدسي:

"إذا تقرب العبد مني شبرا تقربت منه ذراعا ، وإذا تقرب مني ذراعا تقربت منه باعا ، وإذا أتاني مشيا أتيته هرولة ، وإن هرول سعيت إليه ، وأنا أسرع بالمغفرة " #حديث_صحيح

وبعدين مش عندك list طلبات قـــــــــــــــــــد كدة عايزها تتحقق؟؟ :)) و عايز اعانة ليها؟؟
مش عندك حاجات كتيــــــر نفسك تحصل و مش بايديك حتى السعي ليها كانسان؟
مش عندك ناس كتيــــــــر بتحبهم و نفسك يبقوا في اسعد حال؟ :))
مش نفسك ربنا يقرب البعيد؟  
مش نفسك تدعي لكل الحاجات دي و الناس دي بظهر الغيب و الملائكة (الكائنات النورية الخالصة لوجه رب كريم) تدعي لك وتقولك "ولك مثله" :))

"إن الله عز وجل يمهل حتى يذهب شطر الليل الأول ، ثم ينزل إلى السماء الدنيا ، فيقول : " هل من مستغفر فأغفر له ، هل من سائل فأعطيه ، هل من تائب فأتوب عليه " ، حتى ينشق الفجر"

جرّب كدة ... جرّب تقوم وتعاند نفسك الضعيفة لعلها تقوى :)) .. جرّب تنشر و تذّكر غيرك .. جرّب و جزاءك انت و من تبعك عند رب "كريــــــــــــم" :))

{ وَالَّذِينَ جَاهَدُوا فِينَا لَنَهْدِيَنَّهُمْ سُبُلَنَا وَإِنَّ اللَّهَ لَمَعَ الْمُحْسِنِينَ } :))
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في وسط هذا الشعور بالعجز, خطرت لي #خاطرة, لِمَ نكتفِ بالدعاء حين الشعور بالعجز عن الفعل؟

الدعاء يرد القدر و هو كالسحر إن قيل صدقا خالصا لوجه الله, ولكن لِمَ نكتفِ بهذه الوسيلة؟ (خاصة البنات والعاجزين عن نصرة الحق بشكل عملي) فلننصر إذا القائمين للدفاع عن حقوقنا!

ببساطة .. #جرّب_كدة :

- تُخرج #صدقة_جارية لمعتقل لعل الله يحفظه في محبسه و يفك أسره عاجلا غير آجل
- تُخرج صدقة جارية لمصاب لعل الشافي يشفيه و يعافيه شفاء لا يغادر سقما
-تُخرج صدقة جارية لشهيد! أيوة لشهيد : ) فلا نعلم أيهم تقبل الله منهم الشهادة, فإن احتسبناه شهيدا و هو غير ذلك كان في ميزانه, و إن كان شهيدا فلعل الله يرزقنا دربه و شفاعته : )
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#جرّب_كدة تقرأ الآيات دي من سورة التوبة .. #عن #الإنفاق (المنافقين\المؤمنين)

( المُنافِقونَ والمُنافِقاتُ بَعضُهُم مِّن بَعضٍ ۚ يأْمُرونَ بالمُنكَرِ ويَنهَوْنَ عَنِ المَعروفِ ويَقْبِضونَ أيْدِيَهُم ۚ نَسوا اللَّهَ فَنَسِيَهُم ۗ إنَّ المُنافِقينَ همُ الفاسِقون (67) 

وعَدَ اللَّهُ المُنافِقينَ والمُنافِقاتِ والكُفَّارَ نارَ جَهَنَّمَ خالِدينَ فيها ۚ هيَ حَسبُهُم ۚ ولَعَنَهُمُ اللَّهُ ۖ ولَهُم عَذابٌ مُّقيم (68) )

( والمؤْمِنونَ والمؤْمِناتُ بَعضُهُم أوْلِياءُ بَعضٍ ۚ يأمُرونَ بالمَعروفِ ويَنهَوْنَ عَنِ المُنكَرِ ويُقيمونَ الصَّلاةَ ويؤْتونَ الزَّكاةَ ويُطيعونَ اللَّهَ ورَسولَهُ ۚ أولَٰئِكَ سَيَرحَمُهُمُ اللَّهُ ۗ إنَّ اللَّهَ عَزيزٌ حَكيم (71)

وعَدَ اللَّهُ المؤْمِنينَ والمؤْمِناتِ جَنَّاتٍ تَجري من تَحتِها الأَنهارُ خالِدينَ فيها ومَساكِنَ طَيِّبَةً في جَنَّاتِ عَدنٍ ۚ ورِضْوانٌ مِّنَ اللَّهِ أكبَرُ ۚ ذَٰلِكَ هوَ الفَوْزُ العَظيم (72) )

انت مين فيهم بصدق؟ 
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#جرّب_كدة 

تخرّج صدقة جارية لمتوفّي (حتى و إن احتسبته شهيدا)
تخرّج صدقة جارية لمُصاب\مريض
تخرّج صدقة جارية لمُعتقل

لعلها تكون مغفرة لذنب و رفع لبلاء و علو درجات وجمع طيّب في الدنيا و الفردوس باذن الله 

قال رسول الله صلّى الله عليه وسلّم:
(ما من يوم يصبح العباد فيه إلا وملكان ينزلان فيقول أحدهما: اللهم أعط منفقاً خلفاً، ويقول الآخر: اللهم أعط ممسكاً تلفاً)
متفق عليه.
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ومع خاطرة العودة لهاشتاج #جرّب_كدة : ) .. #استنصح 

جرّب كدة تطلّع صدقة كل يوم 2 جنيه "بس" .. جنيه لك و جنيه تهب ثوابه لحد بتحبه :)) 
يعني كأنّك اديته هدية جنيه .. بس جنيه وقت الشدة .. جنيه في الآخرة : ) 

والحسنة بعشر أمثالها .. يعني كأنّها 10 جنيه  والله يُضاعف لمن يشاء :))

(تهادوا تحابّوا) #حديث_صحيح :))
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